two nights ago i woke up in the middle of the night to someone standing at the foot of my bed, on my bed, looking at me. i thought my roommate had sleep walked over to my bed for some reason, so i yelled "kristen!" to get her to wake up. well then i heard her stir in her bed next to me, and definitely not in front of me. so i stared at the person and as my heart was about to beat out of my chest, it finally went away. so i thought i was delusional but now people are telling me there's a ghost and since people commit suicide at my school more often than normal, maybe that's why.
but maybe i'm just delusional.
anyway, all the trauma caused me to sleep late through my 9:00 and then when i was ready to go to my 10:30 i lacked motivation and instead sat around until i met oscar (local student) for lunch @ the cafe. he brought me some dessert from 'pie and tart' which is a famous hk bakery. it was an egg/dough/cheese concoction. it was good but i could have done without the cheese part of it. anyway, rahul joined us and later apologized for barging in our date but it was very much not one of those. then i went to my 1:30 and then i had my 3:00 and then a group meeting at 6 and then that was over. (thankfully).
kristen, jeff, michael and i went out for indian food and met up with oliver and krisstopher there too. it was my first time having indian food abroad and boy, was it needed! although my tummy hurts a little bit today and i wonder if thats a result of the delicious meal.
we went to a club called volar that jake told us about and got free shots until midnight (which was about 20 minutes away from the time we arrived) and then just kind of hung around. there was a famous dj there from paris and im not really into that kind of music so i didn't think it was all that grand. but jake and rahul were loving it. and i mean lovin it! (i think it was because they went to vistory's pub night "drunk in four shots" before they met up with us) (and also sebastian was sick so he didn't join us) (and so was david leibman)after a stop at 7-11, we headed back to mine and kristens room and hung out and ate chips and drank water. it was a grand old time until i was ready to go to sleep. which i did at 3 and now at noon the next day im awake and my only obligation for the day is to go to the gym. and perhaps i could work on homework. but...yeah.
oh and on a purely separate note from anything i have written above: i think im starting to find religion or spirituality or something like that. i've been thinking about a lot of things since i've been in hong kong regarding myself and what i believe and now i think that i'm leaning towards buddhism. however, im going to refrain from categorizing myself because what does that matter? all that matters (to me) is what i believe and it's a personal thing so i don't need to declare it. but i do like to talk about it, for instance, right now.
i think the main goal in life should be to be happy. finding contentment, i have found (haha), is NOT an easy task and takes a lot of time & effort. i've been so used to feeling sad, dull, bored, depressed, anything negative for the longest time and then a transformation occurred and here i am, happy and healthy and wonderfully excited about everything in life. and now all i want to do is keep progressing toward that enlightenment, which i think is the point of life. you have to find out who you are and what makes you content.
all the rest is just fluff.
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